I'm so so so so so tired.
I feel burdened with so many responsibilities.
I've always loved being involved, but when it all happens on the same day...
I need to take a break. From all thisssssssssss.
From ministries, worship, toddlers, CGL, musical.
And i neeeeda just, breathe.
I feel dry, I havent been going for my own cg, since i've become a cgl.
And im really kinda sad..
I feel far from God, and i know i need him to help me go through this.
Now my birthdays feel different.
In the past, I would anticipate every moment, and make sure it is a super fulfilled one.
This year, i had to wake up at 645, i was late for lesson despite that.
And also, i feel like, its just any other day. doesnt feel "special"
i dont know if its a good feeling, but everyday shld be special, not just bdays.
and maybe thats why im feeling so down, i wish i could have some bday party.
major major bday party, or maybe just a small one, at somewhere special, and splurge on smth.
i think its pms, but it all adds up.
this frustration, sadness and tireness is overwhelming.
and i pray for peace, and calmness to soothe my spirit.