11.11.2008

hi im still awake. (:


feels weird, my fifteenth birthday. whats the diff? hmm. 
1. i never cried so much tears [of happiness] before at one shot when im alone. 
2. my mum spent money on me, she bought me expensive handbag.
3. there is a guy who came to my house with a cake and a candle, and sang happy bday just for me. together with a kiss. 
4. i have a bestfriend. and he is the only one who called me, to wish me happy bday, and even sing to me in eng and chinese. i couldnt stop crying. thanks bestf. <3
5. i never felt so loved on a birthday, and this time there was no grand celebration. 
6. it felt tons better than last year, although i was not expecting tears of joy, but sadness. 
7. i miss my dad, but i smile, i dont feel angry like i did on my last birthday. 
8. i am still awake. 
9. i have so many superkewlxzandkawaiixz friends there for me. 
10. my girlf, who i knew for 3years, who i quarrel with so many times, bitching about each other and all, made me cry the most. after all, we're still the best of friends as we are eh. 
11. i love alim, and i never loved a guy for so long before besides my dad, and i never felt so lucky and loved to be alive, i never felt so much love. 
12. i have a God who loves me and has been there for me ever since. 
13. i think i grew up, but am still a kid.
14. i still feel a lil weird. that im older. means im cleverer k.
15. number fifteen, happy birthday to me. it might have been the loneliest first 2 hours of my birthday, but its my happiest. <3

nights. better go sleep early.
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