hellos. <---- changing my habit. XD
so, it rained just now, so heavily that i kena chua by thunder. heees. then i thought of those ppl. who are like, homeless? old people especially, those that collect cans, cardboard boxes and trash and all. my heart really goes out to them. it sucks to think about it but its reality that is DOES exist.
you see a reallyreally old auntie collecting cans, you happen to have one on your table. you empty it, passes it to her and thinks in your mind, 'poor thing'. and you go on with life. go home, bathe, sleep in your comfortable bed with aircon. and that memory is like, totally erased. but its not our fault is it? saddening. but its worse when, every single memory, small little ones like this, stays in your mind. its haunting. what can i actually do about it. its just like that starfish story, do as much as possible. see one, help one, go on with life. but, isnt there a better solution. i dont know, cos im not the govt. but i cant possibly go on strike and say "NO MORE HOMELESS OLD FOLKS." its prety dumb and of no use i guess. but doesnt it hurt, so badly, when you see these things happening? what if that particular can-collector was your grandma? heart-breaking. cos most of them dont even have family. or are abandoned.
im still not over money no enough 2. ask me why am i so sensitive? cos i love love love old folks. maybe its cos i can speak dialect, i can communicate with them. but i just hate to see them sad, cos their smile is priceless. money no enough 2 is like a typical singaporean family. and it sucks, totally, to know and realise the cruelty of reality.
ah shut up joey, talk so much, you also cant so anything. fine i know, but i still need to say it! see one, help one, get on with life OR do a little more? (: yes we can. our grandparents and great grandparents [if still here] ! if every single family takes good care and loves their old folks, wont the world be a better place? no more sad sad stories about old folks being thrown into the old folks home and abandoned there. no more poor old can-collectors trying to earn a lil amt of cash. yea. it'll be so so so great.
anw, i love my grandmother and it sucks to see her sad. and i actually ____ today just affter a phone conv. with her. but it hurts to feel so useless and helpless. what can we do? work? give her money? dumb. i would love to. but must be more practical. anything to see her smile. (: i love love love her and i believe that the best thing i can do for her now is to pray for the speediest recovery ever and a fit and healthy body to continue her work. :D
so, tried to study geog just now, but failed. i TRIED! argh. whatever. so tmr is one big huge disaster that im not looking forward to. ): anw its too late la huh. face it.
GOODNIGHT EVERYONE.
and i think my boyfriend rocks and i love him loads! <3>