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im feeling super downed.

1. my bills are 70+.
2. i have no money to pay for it. my mum is going to pay.
3. my mum is a single-parent. yet i spend her money like water.
4. my maths tcher lectured me. i got 1/40.
5. i never failed maths. till now.
6. my hols hmw were untouched.
7. i owe tchers tons and tons of hmw.
8. i spend all my allowance.
9. i sleep late at night. and wake up tired.
10. i tried to sleep early. i always fail to.
11. my parents are not even DIVORCED.
12. i hope they will hurry. its better.
13. my father msgs me. i get scared.
14. i dont want to see him. i don know him.
15. my mum is so strong. yet i cant even save her money.
16. i cant drink coffee or eat chocs. i have no energy.
17. my headaches are getting more painful. i cry cos of it.
18. i dont like to cry cos of pains. it sucks.
19. my results for mid-year will most probably suck.
20. my mum will think its cos of alim.
21. that sucks.
22. im not studying. i dont know why.
23. i sleep in class. cos im tired.
24. sleeping in class is bad. i want to listen to the tcher.
25. MY GRADES ARE DEPROVING.
26. i dont wanna drop amaths.
27. i need to start studying.
28. i need to buy pens to encourage myself.
29. i keep needing money. i suck.
30. im so pessimistic. im not supposed to be.

i shall stop all this.
soon.
after i get my pens.
after i start studying.
after my parents legally divorce.
after i stop sleeping in class.
after i stop getting headaches.
after i start saving money.
after all the bad stuff.
the good will come.

“Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?”
Matthew 6:26

thankyou daddy for always being there for me.
thankyou for providing me with everything i need.
thankyou for loving me.
thankyou for being my daddy.

thanks alim.
for making me laugh, even when im on the verge of tears.
you rock.
you always do. <3

sorry peeps for this joey-is-super-down post.
nights and bye.